02 06 2025

nyfw

getting ready for jane / wade and gabe gordon tonight

02 05 2025

new desk for studio

it is too small and upsetting

02 05 2025

i love this aspect of your apartment

02 04 2025

z is sick

i walk to the asian mark to pick up patis (fish sauce)

I am making him arroz caldo to heal his sickness / stomach

02 03 2025

it girl

there is a kind of girl that doesn’t exist, but before you have spent enough time being, you think she does. her bmi is low and her attitude is poor. she believes she can be awful to anyone and and still receive exceptional treatment. she prefers to disrespect herself and other because the emptiness is unnameable. socially nothing matters to her because she does not posses the truth. she is not real. she is a troupe of something sometimes called an It Girl. she exists in coming of age movies and on tumblr. she can not function in the world because her beauty holds no value when paired with indifference. she does not create anything of substance because she doesnt exist yet.

 

02 03 2025

paper bag collection

02 02 2025

studio bathroom + raw milk ice cream with olive

02 02 2025

moving items out of lucky jewel studio in a fur jacket

02 02 2025

z building a third ikea chair to prepare for tammer’s addition to the house

pastries from gem home with abbie: consulting her for music videos (so excited)

02 01 2025

dance

02 01 2025

breakfast with tammer + zane

01 31 2025

waiting for the train to go to funny bar

funny bar is exactly wanted nyc to feel like

01 30 2025

left: me when i finish an apple

right: playlist 1 + playlist 2 by zane made for me to play on my muji cd player (gifted to me by zane)

01 29 2025

as per duh

01 29 2025

it is not enough that dark at 6am anymore <3

01 28 2025

tea at laduree with olive after work

dinner with shay and olive at minetta tavern

no reservation so we ate at the bar (45 minute wait)

olive entertained most of the 45 minutes with her dream sequence

at dinner we shared:

apple tart

side salad

french fries

beef tar tar

one scoop of vanilla ice cream

two medium rare minetta burgers (2/3 each)

drink breakdown:

olive

  1. 1 extra dirty gin martini (house gin)

  2. last word with requested cherry

shay

  1. dirty martini with vodka (house vodka)

me

  1. hot toddy (in a wine glasss…)

  2. dirty gin martini (hendricks gin)

01 27 2025

right: us as beer in molo glasses

left: z turning on the muji cd player

01 27 2025

me

01 26 2025

perfect snow

01 25 2025


patrick in the snow

01 25 2025


bye vermont

01 25 2025

weekend in vermont with 17 friends

01 24 2025

ice skating in vermont

01 24 2025

left: pumpernickel bread with butter and jam

right: pumpernickel bread with butter, peanut butter, bananas, Cinnamon and coffee

01 23 2025

pure

01 23 2025

z got me:

mre

liger pin

muji / naoto fukasawa cd player

2 burned cds of the playlists he has made me

i also got z a giami hat and prada sport messenger bag

see zane wearing all gifts below:

01 22 2025

we both got each other napoleon dynamite related gifts

i got him a napoleon dynamite liger t shirt

he got me a napoleon dynamite liger pin

01 21 2025

perfect outfit

01 21 2025

upsetting meal for gut health

01 20 2025

reorganized my junk drawer

01 20 2025

new outfit fixation

01 20 2025

understand

01 20 2025

contacts + paper incense from taylor (gift exchange)

01 19 2025

inspiring text on my sunday walk to the park

01 19 2025

7: wake up

7: make tea

7: get dressed

8: take laundry to laundromat

8: get celsius

8: drink celsius and walk to gym

8: gym

8: read at gym

9: read at park

9: life thyme (groceries)

9: walk home

10: shower

10: put away groceries

10: get dressed

11: hair

12: meet ivy and giane for brunch

12: brunch

1: shopping (beacons closet and brandy meville)

1: find fur coat at beacons (reading cat marnell right now…)

2: read

3: blog

4: clean

5: get laundry

6: get dressed (new fur jacket, diesel jeans, white tank, helmut land sweater, white tabi sneakers, brown soccer ball bag)

7: meet naomie and teegan for a hot toddy

7: considered going to earth for “silence”

8: check livestream of “silence”, decide not to go

9: dinner at forget me not (cesar salad with chicken and no croutons + another hot toddy)

10: f train home

10: get ready to sleep

10: sleep

01 18 2025

gift exchange with taylor, sasha, and tulane

tulane gave us juicy couture underwear and a foot mask

i gave everyone a pair of earrings (mixed and matched styles)

sasha gave me a hair mask, Tulane got a guinness glass, and taylor got leaf incense

i gave sasha rhinestone tights, tulane got a bergamot perfume, and taylor got brown knit mittens

taylor gave me a magnet and paper incense holder, sasha got a cheburashka cancel, and tulane got a bone salt spoon and bone dish

01 18 2025


girls dinner with taylor, sasha and tulane

01 18 2025


Feeling really in defense of the poor image

01 20 2025


contacts and paper incense holder from taylor (gift exchange mentioned below)

01 18 2025

zand + i will meet olive + lucas

at forget me not to watch arsnal/villa

i will order a hot toddy (no sugar) + Cesar salad with no croutons and steak (or chicken)

i assume zane will order a bloody mary and a breakfast burrito maybe a beer maybe a coffee

lucas will order the boston breakfast or other breakfast plate, a coffee and or a beer depending on if he is biking today

olive has already stated she will order a bloody mary and i can see her going for the breakfast burrito as well (she will bring a yerba matte)

01 17 2025

music themed outfit

01 16 2025

studio coming together

built the judd day bed + organized boxes

still need a desk + shelving + lighting + fridge

01 15 2025

noise canceling headphone for privacy

01 15 2025

was invited to a herman miller event

learned i was invited as a designer <3

01 15 2025

denim consideration

01 15 2024

protein

01 14 2025

cabbage + grapes for lunch

will use the cabbage to make tuna wraps

01 13 2025

new kinto cups

took 4 months to decide to buy these

01 12 2025

mom showing off her new boots

she purchased these for her Live action role play d&d game

01 12 2025

mom also showing off her new objects

she says the cement cones are “me (her), stacey, Lola (me), and ivy / our family”

01 11 2025

two best friends purchase a pair of earrings to share

01 11 2025

closet sale

i <3 owning very little

sold more than half of my wardrobe

01 10 2025

made breakfast for z

it was his first time having this

there are so many names for this dish (see below)

popeye

bullseye

one-eyed

hole in one

hobo eggs

pirates eye

egg in a nest

egg in a hole

toad in a hole

one eyed jack

one eyed sam

buckeye toast

one eyed pete

egg in a frame

egg in a basket

gashouse eggs

gashouse special

01 09 2025

perfect

01 08 2025

girls dinner at emily’s

we spoke about:

the fires

boyfriends

bv medication

unemployment

making money

up-side down sweater

60 year old influencers

1 bedroom apartments

drinking on bv medication

2016 vermont house rules

ghia non alcoholic beverage

01 08 2025

today is almost tomorrow

01 08 2025

this is what it feels like this:

i own a black comb + a black mason pearson brush.

all other bathroom appliances + products are white.

my soap is white.

my flat iron is white

my towels are white.

my blow dryer is white.

my laundry bin is white.

my tooth brush is white.

my bath products are white.

my bathroom it’s self is white.

the black brush and comb bother me.

but the mason pearson brush was $150

+ is repeatedly damaged by my hair dryer.

i don’t bother replacing the brush because of that.

the brush and the comb work well together

+ i keep them in a cabinet so they are not

measured against the other white products.

when i visit my family for the holiday,

my sister offers my black comb to my mother.

she does this b/c my mother forgot to bring a comb.

i’m not sure why my sister feels

comfortable offering my objects to my mother.

i assume she does this b/c

i had noticed she had the same comb in white

+ i remarked i wish mine was white as well.

the offering of my comb throws me.

i’m upset because i don’t like when things change.

regardless, i let my mom keep the comb.

she doesn’t understand my fit

+ offers to purchase me a new comb.

Yes: she could buy the comb in white.

no: she can’t buy the comb in white

b/c then it won’t match the brush.

no: i would have to spend another $150

on a new white mason pearson brush.

no: i don’t want to do that.

yes: but… i do want the white brush eventually.

yes: so i should purchase the white comb because eventually i will have the white brush.

no: it will throw me to have the

white comb while i’m waiting for the white brush.

yes: she could get me a black comb…

+ it would match the black brush.

i already have the black brush and black comb,

so i would be reset to what was already there.

no: because i want the white brush eventually.

nothing: there is no soliton.

no: even if i purchase the white brush and the white comb eventually,

i don’t want to damage the new white brush with the hair dryer.

no: damaging the black brush with the hairdryer was unintentional,

+ cannot be repeated with the white brush.

no: even if i get the white comb + the white brush,

i will have to keep the black brush to use while i blow dry my hair.

her final solution is suggesting i purchase a silver metal brush for blow drying my hair.

there is no solution.

nothing is purchased.

an equation without an answer.

(black brush - black comb)

+ white brush + white comb

=

01 07 2025

i’m going to make an outfit so boring

01 07 2025

6am wake up to extended the day by 2 hours

12 06 2024

i can see the end at the beginning

01 05 2024

us

01 05 2025

uhaul for zane’s bed frame + mattress + my colombo trolly + random roller chair from denmark

12 05 2025

us again

12 05 2025

2025 =

purity ring

no makeup

nyt crossword

dirt under nails

iphone 8 button

luka modric headband

ian level of normal style

lush product in metal tin

basketball ball ambient sound

twee adjacent outfit (peacoat + a hoodie)

bringing your boyfriend on the family vacation

12 05 2025

us again and again until its backwards

01 04 2024

IN

blogs

health

shame

posting

humility

honesty

manners

autotune

expired id

monogamy

owning less

snow globes

normal outfit

forgiving him

thin eyebrows

fake piercings

subversive drip

grocery shopping = hanging out

laying out outfit the night before

OUT

shyness

being tired

purchasing

rebranding

opium style

being crass

buying new

dating apps

dishes in sink

remembering

viral products

dressing down

private account

1:1 protein intake

being on your phone

being negative online

being down bad (publicly)

01 03 2025

borscht by grace

01 02 2024

i <3 the delusion of a new year

01 01 2025

zane waiting for me to be ready

new years day: central park + bagels + everything enjoyers

01 01 2025


new year: nothing needs to change

12 31 2024



8: wake up

9: tea + acv

10: post + exercise

11: gym

12: shower + hair + laundry

1: clean house

2: reduce closet

3: errands / shop

4: ^

5: ^

6: get dressed + train

7: dinner

8: ^

9: head to sashas

10: drink

11: ^

12: new year

1: harrison’s

2: office

12 31 2024

karaoke to welcome 2025

12 30 2024

pb2

eggs

kefir

olives

lemon

grapes

papaya

bananas

tomatoes

cucumber

blueberry

bone broth

raspberries

juniper kraut

whtie kimchi

micro greens

protein power

cottage cheese

oil free tuna salad

organic turkish figs

12 29 2024

hanukah at other lolas house

12 29 2024

finally home

12 28 2024

in chicago for a silk meetup at final blow

12 27 2024

i <3 THE AIRPORT

12 27 2024

zane 10 am baileys airport moment

12 27 2024

tiny 6 person plane to get from montserrat to antigua

12 27 2024

i love almost everthing about traveling

12 27 2024

montserrat airport bathroom

12 27 2025

the celery we used for daily the holiday bloody mary

12 26 2024

indoor outdoor house is so perfect

12 25 2024

was moved to draw on my wrapping

12 25 2024

z trying to plank

12 24 2024

a perfect beach day

i found a few A letters this day

12 24 2024

ivy on the black beach

the sand is black because of the volcano

12 24 2025

happy holidays

we <3 new media

12 24 2024

we went on a tour of the “exclusionary zone”
this is the area that the volcano hit badly in 2010

12 23 2024

us >

12 23 2024

z sleep while i do yoga with my mom

12 22 2024

my moms are thinking of purchasing this home on Monserrat

12 22 2024

potential new home features

12 22 2024

yoga with mom

volcano smoke in the background

12 22 2024

the (active) volcano and a 6 inch caterpillar

12 22 2024

walking to the simone’s rock field station

tree with veins + tree with wasp nest i think

12 22 2024

beautiful tiled tub in potential new home

12 22 2024

shavers only plugs

12 22 2024

me as a fan by zane kind

12 22 2024

photo idea by zane:

12 21 2024

travel colors

12 21 2024

arrival in montserrat

gps in japanese that reminds me of the maps in battle royal

12 21 2024

stacey’s crutches in the stand

new symbol necklace on zane

12 20 2024

long day of travel

12 20 2024

8 person plane to the island

12 20 2024

z

12 20 2024

cool growth

12 20 2024

jfk <3

12 20 2024

egg bites from dd

12 19 2024

releasing today at 12:00 <3

12 19 2024

gift wrapping >

12 18 2024

painting the floors white + moving in

12 18 2024

all food feels like poison

trying chicken noodle soup for breakfast

12 17 2024

studio move in day

12 16 2024

hair wash day

12 15 2024

new studio with jonah >

painted with z and jonah

12 15 2024

cookie swap at aimees house

12 16 2024

fridays breakfast posted on sunday

12 16 2024

kolaches before home depop run to purchase paint for the new studio floor

12 14 2024

r = r e s p e c t

other lola’s perfect home

12 14 2024

headshots of other lola for a job application

12 14 2024

soon >

12 14 2024

z sleeping in after randomly live night

12 13 2024

me anyways

12 12 2024

recession diary:

11:35 at for eggs + sausage + green tea at landmark diner

12 11 2024

learning to wake up early so i can live well

12 11 2024

being >

12 11 2024

choosing the comfort of familiarity over the pain of growth <

12 10 2024

orders packaged

12 10 2024

symbol earrings

12 09 2024


lola wish list for bella m lucio 2024


ck one

pet rock

cup speaker

sound paper

white sox hat

head and heart

health by tan lin

supernormal egg

michelle lamy doll

reusable hand warmer

margiela hair necklace

corrugated metal sheet

yaya ho by ingo maurer

random mutagenesis gun

glove chair by joe colombo

dirk bikkemberg football bag

siren alarm kit (3200PSSRN)

haim steinbach wall sculpture

model release by richard kern

Hans Haacke, Grass Grow, 1967

Hair necklace by christoph zellweger

foreign bodies by christoph zellweger

Millipore XX6310000 single chambler field incubator

supernormal by jasper morrison and natao fukasawa

Apple Mac Mini A1347 (Late 2012) Core i5-3210M 2.50GHz 4GB 500GB HDD Mac OS X

12 09 2024

enjoying everything with you even when i don’t understand

12 09 2024

matching

12 08 2024

faux jason isip video coming soon

12 08 2024

baby your drip is so subversive

12 08 2024

infrastructure >

12 08 2024

western MA with z to visit my mom + stacey

12 08 2024

i wish i was snowing

12 07 2024

control yourself, take only what you need from it

12 06 2024

wfh flowers

12 05 2024

personal fog

12 05 2024

i need to go gym about this

12 05 2024

living in the west village makes me feel like the only person

12 04 2024

landlord

12 04 2024

top artists

1 voice actor

2 2hollis

3 esp

4 brat star

5 suzy sheer

top songs

1 you'll come back

2 thinkin of u

3 home

4 sister

5 tewmuch

minutes listened

47,323

12 04 2024

i am in a subway ad for zora (subways below)

broadway lafayette (b,d, f, m) manhattan

canal street (n,q) manhattan

montrose avenue (l) brooklyn

morgan avenue (l) brooklyn

dekalb avenue (l) brooklyn

myrtle-wyckoff avenues (l) brooklyn

halsey street (l) brooklyn

12 03 2024

twee af

12 03 2024

what camera do you use:

12 03 2024

new

12 02 2024

tomorrow

12 02 2024

one full month of blogging everyday

its like breathing air its nothing it means nothing

12 02 2024

lunch at happier with gentry

spicy squash soup (perfect)

lamb meat ball (cold?)

12 02 2024

tomorrow

12 02 2024

6am gym

30 minutes stairmaster

105 flights (level 7 - 15)

12 01 2024

sunday:

wake up (no alarm)

apple cider vinegar

tea

exercise

shower

straighten hair

get dressed (soccer theme: adidas track pants + bomber jacket + loafers)

blog

grocery shop for full english breakfast

coffee

blog on m train (style =)

watch liverpool v man city

cook full english breakfast

send work email

walk to coffee + friend

shop with friend

m train to chinatown optical

tea

buy apple cider vinegar

home

wash hair

lovely day (restaurant)

blog

bed

12 01 2024

style = you

style = saying no

style = consistency

style = having limits

style ≠ new clothing

style ≠ finding yourself

style ≠ over-calculated

style = creating yourself

style = choosing not to buy

style = more than waradrobe

style = manners, habits, cadence

style = how you treat your possessions

style ≠ changing your style every season

style = you don’t have a choice but to live by

style = relearning how to wear what you have

12 01 2024

lucas and olive watching the liverpool v man city game

11 30 2024

watching the thanksgiving day parade in Oregon

11 29 2024

z’s fathers farm

11 29 2024

miguel adrover inspired farm photos

11 29 2024

z’s barn

11 29 2024

z with the families horse

11 29 2024

cute structures

11 29 2024

us

11 28 2024

august’s genius cinnamon rolls

11 27 2024

frontier bathroom infrastructure

11 27 2024

is this anything?

11 27 2024

airport obsessed forever and ever


11 27 2024

i love when you (you) are wearing greasy hair

bomber jacket blue green jeans no id trainers no

bag knit scarf missing tooth dirt under nails 1

silver ring 2 silver rings

11 27 2024

it means nothing it’s like water it’s breathing air

11 27 2024

.. , ; ‘‘ , ,, .. .. .. . .. ‘.. ;; . . . + . . .. . . - -

11 27 2024

finalize packing for portland

11 26 2024

my extra dirty martini with hendricks

vs. shay’s extra dirty spicy martini with titos (“dirty jeans”)

11 26 2024

more packing for portland

chose the helmut lang (left) over the paloma wool

11 26 2024

packing for thanksgiving in portland with z’s family

i need “walking shoes” for a thanksgiving day run we will attend

i am bringing the tabis for waking and my margiela heeled boots for everything else

11 26 2024

favorite window in soho

i think the proenza schouler psi is the next it-bag btw

11 26 2024

every internet addicted girl is my sister

every girl with a vape is my responsibility

11 25 2024

for me, the biggest indie sleaze revival is the uptick of neckface tags in soho

11 24 2024

felix for lunch with ivy

this was my second time eating escargot in two days

we ordered: escargot, peppermint tea, trout, spinach, salmon + green beans

11 24 2024

i am grateful to live alone on sundays

11 24 2024

hair wash day

11 24 2024

my $22.00 straightener from don quijote

rare to find a straightener with a white cord

believe me, i have been looking for a long time

11 24 2024

How can the body be so strong

and so weak at the same time

How can glue curl my eyelashes

how can heat straighten my hair 

How can i make it permanent 

11 24 2024

perfect object on a photo book of naturally growing arugula