02 06 2025
nyfw
getting ready for jane / wade and gabe gordon tonight
02 05 2025
new desk for studio
it is too small and upsetting
02 05 2025
i love this aspect of your apartment
02 04 2025
z is sick
i walk to the asian mark to pick up patis (fish sauce)
I am making him arroz caldo to heal his sickness / stomach
02 03 2025
it girl
there is a kind of girl that doesn’t exist, but before you have spent enough time being, you think she does. her bmi is low and her attitude is poor. she believes she can be awful to anyone and and still receive exceptional treatment. she prefers to disrespect herself and other because the emptiness is unnameable. socially nothing matters to her because she does not posses the truth. she is not real. she is a troupe of something sometimes called an It Girl. she exists in coming of age movies and on tumblr. she can not function in the world because her beauty holds no value when paired with indifference. she does not create anything of substance because she doesnt exist yet.
02 03 2025
paper bag collection
02 02 2025
studio bathroom + raw milk ice cream with olive
02 02 2025
moving items out of lucky jewel studio in a fur jacket
02 02 2025
z building a third ikea chair to prepare for tammer’s addition to the house
pastries from gem home with abbie: consulting her for music videos (so excited)
02 01 2025
dance
02 01 2025
breakfast with tammer + zane
01 31 2025
waiting for the train to go to funny bar
funny bar is exactly wanted nyc to feel like
01 30 2025
left: me when i finish an apple
right: playlist 1 + playlist 2 by zane made for me to play on my muji cd player (gifted to me by zane)
01 29 2025
as per duh
01 29 2025
it is not enough that dark at 6am anymore <3
01 28 2025
tea at laduree with olive after work
dinner with shay and olive at minetta tavern
no reservation so we ate at the bar (45 minute wait)
olive entertained most of the 45 minutes with her dream sequence
at dinner we shared:
apple tart
side salad
french fries
beef tar tar
one scoop of vanilla ice cream
two medium rare minetta burgers (2/3 each)
drink breakdown:
olive
1 extra dirty gin martini (house gin)
last word with requested cherry
shay
dirty martini with vodka (house vodka)
me
hot toddy (in a wine glasss…)
dirty gin martini (hendricks gin)
01 27 2025
right: us as beer in molo glasses
left: z turning on the muji cd player
01 27 2025
me
01 26 2025
perfect snow
01 25 2025
patrick in the snow
01 25 2025
bye vermont
01 25 2025
weekend in vermont with 17 friends
01 24 2025
ice skating in vermont
01 24 2025
left: pumpernickel bread with butter and jam
right: pumpernickel bread with butter, peanut butter, bananas, Cinnamon and coffee
01 23 2025
pure
01 23 2025
z got me:
mre
liger pin
muji / naoto fukasawa cd player
2 burned cds of the playlists he has made me
i also got z a giami hat and prada sport messenger bag
see zane wearing all gifts below:
01 22 2025
we both got each other napoleon dynamite related gifts
i got him a napoleon dynamite liger t shirt
he got me a napoleon dynamite liger pin
01 21 2025
perfect outfit
01 21 2025
upsetting meal for gut health
01 20 2025
reorganized my junk drawer
01 20 2025
new outfit fixation
01 20 2025
understand
01 20 2025
contacts + paper incense from taylor (gift exchange)
01 19 2025
inspiring text on my sunday walk to the park
01 19 2025
7: wake up
7: make tea
7: get dressed
8: take laundry to laundromat
8: get celsius
8: drink celsius and walk to gym
8: gym
8: read at gym
9: read at park
9: life thyme (groceries)
9: walk home
10: shower
10: put away groceries
10: get dressed
11: hair
12: meet ivy and giane for brunch
12: brunch
1: shopping (beacons closet and brandy meville)
1: find fur coat at beacons (reading cat marnell right now…)
2: read
3: blog
4: clean
5: get laundry
6: get dressed (new fur jacket, diesel jeans, white tank, helmut land sweater, white tabi sneakers, brown soccer ball bag)
7: meet naomie and teegan for a hot toddy
7: considered going to earth for “silence”
8: check livestream of “silence”, decide not to go
9: dinner at forget me not (cesar salad with chicken and no croutons + another hot toddy)
10: f train home
10: get ready to sleep
10: sleep
01 18 2025
gift exchange with taylor, sasha, and tulane
tulane gave us juicy couture underwear and a foot mask
i gave everyone a pair of earrings (mixed and matched styles)
sasha gave me a hair mask, Tulane got a guinness glass, and taylor got leaf incense
i gave sasha rhinestone tights, tulane got a bergamot perfume, and taylor got brown knit mittens
taylor gave me a magnet and paper incense holder, sasha got a cheburashka cancel, and tulane got a bone salt spoon and bone dish
01 18 2025
girls dinner with taylor, sasha and tulane
01 18 2025
Feeling really in defense of the poor image
01 20 2025
contacts and paper incense holder from taylor (gift exchange mentioned below)
01 18 2025
zand + i will meet olive + lucas
at forget me not to watch arsnal/villa
i will order a hot toddy (no sugar) + Cesar salad with no croutons and steak (or chicken)
i assume zane will order a bloody mary and a breakfast burrito maybe a beer maybe a coffee
lucas will order the boston breakfast or other breakfast plate, a coffee and or a beer depending on if he is biking today
olive has already stated she will order a bloody mary and i can see her going for the breakfast burrito as well (she will bring a yerba matte)
01 17 2025
music themed outfit
01 16 2025
studio coming together
built the judd day bed + organized boxes
still need a desk + shelving + lighting + fridge
01 15 2025
noise canceling headphone for privacy
01 15 2025
was invited to a herman miller event
learned i was invited as a designer <3
01 15 2025
denim consideration
01 15 2024
protein
01 14 2025
cabbage + grapes for lunch
will use the cabbage to make tuna wraps
01 13 2025
new kinto cups
took 4 months to decide to buy these
01 12 2025
mom showing off her new boots
she purchased these for her Live action role play d&d game
01 12 2025
mom also showing off her new objects
she says the cement cones are “me (her), stacey, Lola (me), and ivy / our family”
01 11 2025
two best friends purchase a pair of earrings to share
01 11 2025
closet sale
i <3 owning very little
sold more than half of my wardrobe
01 10 2025
made breakfast for z
it was his first time having this
there are so many names for this dish (see below)
popeye
bullseye
one-eyed
hole in one
hobo eggs
pirates eye
egg in a nest
egg in a hole
toad in a hole
one eyed jack
one eyed sam
buckeye toast
one eyed pete
egg in a frame
egg in a basket
gashouse eggs
gashouse special
01 09 2025
perfect
01 08 2025
girls dinner at emily’s
we spoke about:
the fires
boyfriends
bv medication
unemployment
making money
up-side down sweater
60 year old influencers
1 bedroom apartments
drinking on bv medication
2016 vermont house rules
ghia non alcoholic beverage
01 08 2025
today is almost tomorrow
01 08 2025
this is what it feels like this:
i own a black comb + a black mason pearson brush.
all other bathroom appliances + products are white.
my soap is white.
my flat iron is white
my towels are white.
my blow dryer is white.
my laundry bin is white.
my tooth brush is white.
my bath products are white.
my bathroom it’s self is white.
the black brush and comb bother me.
but the mason pearson brush was $150
+ is repeatedly damaged by my hair dryer.
i don’t bother replacing the brush because of that.
the brush and the comb work well together
+ i keep them in a cabinet so they are not
measured against the other white products.
when i visit my family for the holiday,
my sister offers my black comb to my mother.
she does this b/c my mother forgot to bring a comb.
i’m not sure why my sister feels
comfortable offering my objects to my mother.
i assume she does this b/c
i had noticed she had the same comb in white
+ i remarked i wish mine was white as well.
the offering of my comb throws me.
i’m upset because i don’t like when things change.
regardless, i let my mom keep the comb.
she doesn’t understand my fit
+ offers to purchase me a new comb.
Yes: she could buy the comb in white.
no: she can’t buy the comb in white
b/c then it won’t match the brush.
no: i would have to spend another $150
on a new white mason pearson brush.
no: i don’t want to do that.
yes: but… i do want the white brush eventually.
yes: so i should purchase the white comb because eventually i will have the white brush.
no: it will throw me to have the
white comb while i’m waiting for the white brush.
yes: she could get me a black comb…
+ it would match the black brush.
i already have the black brush and black comb,
so i would be reset to what was already there.
no: because i want the white brush eventually.
nothing: there is no soliton.
no: even if i purchase the white brush and the white comb eventually,
i don’t want to damage the new white brush with the hair dryer.
no: damaging the black brush with the hairdryer was unintentional,
+ cannot be repeated with the white brush.
no: even if i get the white comb + the white brush,
i will have to keep the black brush to use while i blow dry my hair.
her final solution is suggesting i purchase a silver metal brush for blow drying my hair.
there is no solution.
nothing is purchased.
an equation without an answer.
(black brush - black comb)
+ white brush + white comb
=
01 07 2025
i’m going to make an outfit so boring
01 07 2025
6am wake up to extended the day by 2 hours
12 06 2024
i can see the end at the beginning
01 05 2024
us
01 05 2025
uhaul for zane’s bed frame + mattress + my colombo trolly + random roller chair from denmark
12 05 2025
us again
12 05 2025
2025 =
purity ring
no makeup
nyt crossword
dirt under nails
iphone 8 button
luka modric headband
ian level of normal style
lush product in metal tin
basketball ball ambient sound
twee adjacent outfit (peacoat + a hoodie)
bringing your boyfriend on the family vacation
12 05 2025
us again and again until its backwards
01 04 2024
IN
blogs
health
shame
posting
humility
honesty
manners
autotune
expired id
monogamy
owning less
snow globes
normal outfit
forgiving him
thin eyebrows
fake piercings
subversive drip
grocery shopping = hanging out
laying out outfit the night before
OUT
shyness
being tired
purchasing
rebranding
opium style
being crass
buying new
dating apps
dishes in sink
remembering
viral products
dressing down
private account
1:1 protein intake
being on your phone
being negative online
being down bad (publicly)
01 03 2025
borscht by grace
01 02 2024
i <3 the delusion of a new year
01 01 2025
zane waiting for me to be ready
new years day: central park + bagels + everything enjoyers
01 01 2025
new year: nothing needs to change
12 31 2024
8: wake up
9: tea + acv
10: post + exercise
11: gym
12: shower + hair + laundry
1: clean house
2: reduce closet
3: errands / shop
4: ^
5: ^
6: get dressed + train
7: dinner
8: ^
9: head to sashas
10: drink
11: ^
12: new year
1: harrison’s
2: office
12 31 2024
karaoke to welcome 2025
12 30 2024
pb2
eggs
kefir
olives
lemon
grapes
papaya
bananas
tomatoes
cucumber
blueberry
bone broth
raspberries
juniper kraut
whtie kimchi
micro greens
protein power
cottage cheese
oil free tuna salad
organic turkish figs
12 29 2024
hanukah at other lolas house
12 29 2024
finally home
12 28 2024
in chicago for a silk meetup at final blow
12 27 2024
i <3 THE AIRPORT
12 27 2024
zane 10 am baileys airport moment
12 27 2024
tiny 6 person plane to get from montserrat to antigua
12 27 2024
i love almost everthing about traveling
12 27 2024
montserrat airport bathroom
12 27 2025
the celery we used for daily the holiday bloody mary
12 26 2024
indoor outdoor house is so perfect
12 25 2024
was moved to draw on my wrapping
12 25 2024
z trying to plank
12 24 2024
a perfect beach day
i found a few A letters this day
12 24 2024
ivy on the black beach
the sand is black because of the volcano
12 24 2025
happy holidays
we <3 new media
12 24 2024
we went on a tour of the “exclusionary zone”
this is the area that the volcano hit badly in 2010
12 23 2024
us >
12 23 2024
z sleep while i do yoga with my mom
12 22 2024
my moms are thinking of purchasing this home on Monserrat
12 22 2024
potential new home features
12 22 2024
yoga with mom
volcano smoke in the background
12 22 2024
the (active) volcano and a 6 inch caterpillar
12 22 2024
walking to the simone’s rock field station
tree with veins + tree with wasp nest i think
12 22 2024
beautiful tiled tub in potential new home
12 22 2024
shavers only plugs
12 22 2024
me as a fan by zane kind
12 22 2024
photo idea by zane:
12 21 2024
travel colors
12 21 2024
arrival in montserrat
gps in japanese that reminds me of the maps in battle royal
12 21 2024
stacey’s crutches in the stand
new symbol necklace on zane
12 20 2024
long day of travel
12 20 2024
8 person plane to the island
12 20 2024
z
12 20 2024
cool growth
12 20 2024
jfk <3
12 20 2024
egg bites from dd
12 19 2024
releasing today at 12:00 <3
12 19 2024
gift wrapping >
12 18 2024
painting the floors white + moving in
12 18 2024
all food feels like poison
trying chicken noodle soup for breakfast
12 17 2024
studio move in day
12 16 2024
hair wash day
12 15 2024
new studio with jonah >
painted with z and jonah
12 15 2024
cookie swap at aimees house
12 16 2024
fridays breakfast posted on sunday
12 16 2024
kolaches before home depop run to purchase paint for the new studio floor
12 14 2024
r = r e s p e c t
other lola’s perfect home
12 14 2024
headshots of other lola for a job application
12 14 2024
soon >
12 14 2024
z sleeping in after randomly live night
12 13 2024
me anyways
12 12 2024
recession diary:
11:35 at for eggs + sausage + green tea at landmark diner
12 11 2024
learning to wake up early so i can live well
12 11 2024
being >
12 11 2024
choosing the comfort of familiarity over the pain of growth <
12 10 2024
orders packaged
12 10 2024
symbol earrings
12 09 2024
lola wish list for bella m lucio 2024
ck one
pet rock
cup speaker
sound paper
white sox hat
head and heart
health by tan lin
supernormal egg
michelle lamy doll
reusable hand warmer
margiela hair necklace
corrugated metal sheet
yaya ho by ingo maurer
random mutagenesis gun
glove chair by joe colombo
dirk bikkemberg football bag
siren alarm kit (3200PSSRN)
haim steinbach wall sculpture
model release by richard kern
Hans Haacke, Grass Grow, 1967
Hair necklace by christoph zellweger
foreign bodies by christoph zellweger
Millipore XX6310000 single chambler field incubator
supernormal by jasper morrison and natao fukasawa
Apple Mac Mini A1347 (Late 2012) Core i5-3210M 2.50GHz 4GB 500GB HDD Mac OS X
12 09 2024
enjoying everything with you even when i don’t understand
12 09 2024
matching
12 08 2024
faux jason isip video coming soon
12 08 2024
baby your drip is so subversive
12 08 2024
infrastructure >
12 08 2024
western MA with z to visit my mom + stacey
12 08 2024
i wish i was snowing
12 07 2024
control yourself, take only what you need from it
12 06 2024
wfh flowers
12 05 2024
personal fog
12 05 2024
i need to go gym about this
12 05 2024
living in the west village makes me feel like the only person
12 04 2024
landlord
12 04 2024
top artists
1 voice actor
2 2hollis
3 esp
4 brat star
5 suzy sheer
top songs
1 you'll come back
2 thinkin of u
3 home
4 sister
5 tewmuch
minutes listened
47,323
12 04 2024
i am in a subway ad for zora (subways below)
broadway lafayette (b,d, f, m) manhattan
canal street (n,q) manhattan
montrose avenue (l) brooklyn
morgan avenue (l) brooklyn
dekalb avenue (l) brooklyn
myrtle-wyckoff avenues (l) brooklyn
halsey street (l) brooklyn
12 03 2024
twee af
12 03 2024
what camera do you use:
12 03 2024
new
12 02 2024
tomorrow
12 02 2024
one full month of blogging everyday
its like breathing air its nothing it means nothing
12 02 2024
lunch at happier with gentry
spicy squash soup (perfect)
lamb meat ball (cold?)
12 02 2024
tomorrow
12 02 2024
6am gym
30 minutes stairmaster
105 flights (level 7 - 15)
12 01 2024
sunday:
wake up (no alarm)
apple cider vinegar
tea
exercise
shower
straighten hair
get dressed (soccer theme: adidas track pants + bomber jacket + loafers)
blog
grocery shop for full english breakfast
coffee
blog on m train (style =)
watch liverpool v man city
cook full english breakfast
send work email
walk to coffee + friend
shop with friend
m train to chinatown optical
tea
buy apple cider vinegar
home
wash hair
lovely day (restaurant)
blog
bed
12 01 2024
style = you
style = saying no
style = consistency
style = having limits
style ≠ new clothing
style ≠ finding yourself
style ≠ over-calculated
style = creating yourself
style = choosing not to buy
style = more than waradrobe
style = manners, habits, cadence
style = how you treat your possessions
style ≠ changing your style every season
style = you don’t have a choice but to live by
style = relearning how to wear what you have
12 01 2024
lucas and olive watching the liverpool v man city game
11 30 2024
watching the thanksgiving day parade in Oregon
11 29 2024
z’s fathers farm
11 29 2024
miguel adrover inspired farm photos
11 29 2024
z’s barn
11 29 2024
z with the families horse
11 29 2024
cute structures
11 29 2024
us
11 28 2024
august’s genius cinnamon rolls
11 27 2024
frontier bathroom infrastructure
11 27 2024
is this anything?
11 27 2024
airport obsessed forever and ever
11 27 2024
i love when you (you) are wearing greasy hair
bomber jacket blue green jeans no id trainers no
bag knit scarf missing tooth dirt under nails 1
silver ring 2 silver rings
11 27 2024
it means nothing it’s like water it’s breathing air
11 27 2024
.. , ; ‘‘ , ,, .. .. .. . .. ‘.. ;; . . . + . . .. . . - -
11 27 2024
finalize packing for portland
11 26 2024
my extra dirty martini with hendricks
vs. shay’s extra dirty spicy martini with titos (“dirty jeans”)
11 26 2024
more packing for portland
chose the helmut lang (left) over the paloma wool
11 26 2024
packing for thanksgiving in portland with z’s family
i need “walking shoes” for a thanksgiving day run we will attend
i am bringing the tabis for waking and my margiela heeled boots for everything else
11 26 2024
favorite window in soho
i think the proenza schouler psi is the next it-bag btw
11 26 2024
every internet addicted girl is my sister
every girl with a vape is my responsibility
11 25 2024
for me, the biggest indie sleaze revival is the uptick of neckface tags in soho
11 24 2024
felix for lunch with ivy
this was my second time eating escargot in two days
we ordered: escargot, peppermint tea, trout, spinach, salmon + green beans
11 24 2024
i am grateful to live alone on sundays
11 24 2024
hair wash day
11 24 2024
my $22.00 straightener from don quijote
rare to find a straightener with a white cord
believe me, i have been looking for a long time
11 24 2024
How can the body be so strong
and so weak at the same time
How can glue curl my eyelashes
how can heat straighten my hair
How can i make it permanent
11 24 2024
perfect object on a photo book of naturally growing arugula