01 2025

01 31 2025

waiting for the train to go to funny bar

funny bar is exactly wanted nyc to feel like

01 30 2025

left: me when i finish an apple

right: playlist 1 + playlist 2 by zane made for me to play on my muji cd player (gifted to me by zane)

01 29 2025

as per duh

01 29 2025

it is not even that dark at 6am anymore <3

01 28 2025

tea at laduree with olive after work

dinner with shay and olive at minetta tavern

no reservation so we ate at the bar (45 minute wait)

olive entertained most of the 45 minutes with her dream sequence

at dinner we shared:

apple tart

side salad

french fries

beef tar tar

one scoop of vanilla ice cream

two medium rare minetta burgers (2/3 each)

drink breakdown:

olive

  1. 1 extra dirty gin martini (house gin)

  2. last word with requested cherry

shay

  1. dirty martini with vodka (house vodka)

me

  1. hot toddy (in a wine glasss…)

  2. dirty gin martini (hendricks gin)

01 27 2025

right: us as beer in molo glasses

left: z turning on the muji cd player

01 27 2025

me

01 26 2025

perfect snow

01 25 2025

patrick in the snow

01 25 2025

bye vermont

01 25 2025

weekend in vermont with 17 friends

01 24 2025

ice skating in vermont

01 24 2025

left: pumpernickel bread with butter and jam

right: pumpernickel bread with butter, peanut butter, bananas, Cinnamon and coffee

01 23 2025

pure

01 23 2025

z got me:

mre

liger pin

muji / naoto fukasawa cd player

2 burned cds of the playlists he has made me

i also got z a giami hat and prada sport messenger bag

see zane wearing all gifts below:

01 22 2025

we both got each other napoleon dynamite related gifts

i got him a napoleon dynamite liger t shirt

he got me a napoleon dynamite liger pin

01 21 2025

perfect outfit

01 21 2025

upsetting meal for gut health

01 20 2025

reorganized my junk drawer

01 20 2025

new outfit fixation

01 20 2025

understand

01 20 2025

contacts + paper incense from taylor (gift exchange)

01 19 2025

inspiring text on my sunday walk to the park

01 19 2025

7: wake up

7: make tea

7: get dressed

8: take laundry to laundromat

8: get celsius

8: drink celsius and walk to gym

8: gym

8: read at gym

9: read at park

9: life thyme (groceries)

9: walk home

10: shower

10: put away groceries

10: get dressed

11: hair

12: meet ivy and giane for brunch

12: brunch

1: shopping (beacons closet and brandy meville)

1: find fur coat at beacons (reading cat marnell right now…)

2: read

3: blog

4: clean

5: get laundry

6: get dressed (new fur jacket, diesel jeans, white tank, helmut land sweater, white tabi sneakers, brown soccer ball bag)

7: meet naomie and teegan for a hot toddy

7: considered going to earth for “silence”

8: check livestream of “silence”, decide not to go

9: dinner at forget me not (cesar salad with chicken and no croutons + another hot toddy)

10: f train home

10: get ready to sleep

10: sleep

01 18 2025

gift exchange with taylor, sasha, and tulane

tulane gave us juicy couture underwear and a foot mask

i gave everyone a pair of earrings (mixed and matched styles)

sasha gave me a hair mask, Tulane got a guinness glass, and taylor got leaf incense

i gave sasha rhinestone tights, tulane got a bergamot perfume, and taylor got brown knit mittens

taylor gave me a magnet and paper incense holder, sasha got a cheburashka cancel, and tulane got a bone salt spoon and bone dish

01 18 2025

girls dinner with taylor, sasha and tulane

01 18 2025

Feeling really in defense of the poor image

01 20 2025

contacts and paper incense holder from taylor (gift exchange mentioned below)

01 18 2025

zand + i will meet olive + lucas

at forget me not to watch arsnal/villa

i will order a hot toddy (no sugar) + Cesar salad with no croutons and steak (or chicken)

i assume zane will order a bloody mary and a breakfast burrito maybe a beer maybe a coffee

lucas will order the boston breakfast or other breakfast plate, a coffee and or a beer depending on if he is biking today

olive has already stated she will order a bloody mary and i can see her going for the breakfast burrito as well (she will bring a yerba matte)

01 17 2025

music themed outfit

01 16 2025

studio coming together

built the judd day bed + organized boxes

still need a desk + shelving + lighting + fridge

01 15 2025

noise canceling headphone for privacy

01 15 2025

was invited to a herman miller event

learned i was invited as a designer <3

01 15 2025

denim consideration

01 15 2024

protein

01 14 2025

cabbage + grapes for lunch

will use the cabbage to make tuna wraps

01 13 2025

new kinto cups

took 4 months to decide to buy these

01 12 2025

mom showing off her new boots

she purchased these for her Live action role play d&d game

01 12 2025

mom also showing off her new objects

she says the cement cones are “me (her), stacey, Lola (me), and ivy / our family”

01 11 2025

two best friends purchase a pair of earrings to share

01 11 2025

closet sale

i <3 owning very little

sold more than half of my wardrobe

01 10 2025

made breakfast for z

it was his first time having this

there are so many names for this dish (see below)

popeye

bullseye

one-eyed

hole in one

hobo eggs

pirates eye

egg in a nest

egg in a hole

toad in a hole

one eyed jack

one eyed sam

buckeye toast

one eyed pete

egg in a frame

egg in a basket

gashouse eggs

gashouse special

01 09 2025

perfect

01 08 2025

girls dinner at emily’s

we spoke about:

the fires

boyfriends

bv medication

unemployment

making money

up-side down sweater

60 year old influencers

1 bedroom apartments

drinking on bv medication

2016 vermont house rules

ghia non alcoholic beverage

01 08 2025

today is almost tomorrow

01 08 2025

this is what it feels like this:

i own a black comb + a black mason pearson brush.

all other bathroom appliances + products are white.

my soap is white.

my flat iron is white

my towels are white.

my blow dryer is white.

my laundry bin is white.

my tooth brush is white.

my bath products are white.

my bathroom it’s self is white.

the black brush and comb bother me.

but the mason pearson brush was $150

+ is repeatedly damaged by my hair dryer.

i don’t bother replacing the brush because of that.

the brush and the comb work well together

+ i keep them in a cabinet so they are not

measured against the other white products.

when i visit my family for the holiday,

my sister offers my black comb to my mother.

she does this b/c my mother forgot to bring a comb.

i’m not sure why my sister feels

comfortable offering my objects to my mother.

i assume she does this b/c

i had noticed she had the same comb in white

+ i remarked i wish mine was white as well.

the offering of my comb throws me.

i’m upset because i don’t like when things change.

regardless, i let my mom keep the comb.

she doesn’t understand my fit

+ offers to purchase me a new comb.

Yes: she could buy the comb in white.

no: she can’t buy the comb in white

b/c then it won’t match the brush.

no: i would have to spend another $150

on a new white mason pearson brush.

no: i don’t want to do that.

yes: but… i do want the white brush eventually.

yes: so i should purchase the white comb because eventually i will have the white brush.

no: it will throw me to have the

white comb while i’m waiting for the white brush.

yes: she could get me a black comb…

+ it would match the black brush.

i already have the black brush and black comb,

so i would be reset to what was already there.

no: because i want the white brush eventually.

nothing: there is no soliton.

no: even if i purchase the white brush and the white comb eventually,

i don’t want to damage the new white brush with the hair dryer.

no: damaging the black brush with the hairdryer was unintentional,

+ cannot be repeated with the white brush.

no: even if i get the white comb + the white brush,

i will have to keep the black brush to use while i blow dry my hair.

her final solution is suggesting i purchase a silver metal brush for blow drying my hair.

there is no solution.

nothing is purchased.

an equation without an answer.

(black brush - black comb)

+ white brush + white comb

=

01 07 2025

i’m going to make an outfit so boring

01 07 2025

6am wake up to extended the day by 2 hours

12 06 2024

i can see the end at the beginning

01 05 2024

us

01 05 2025

uhaul for zane’s bed frame + mattress + my colombo trolly + random roller chair from denmark

12 05 2025

us again

12 05 2025

2025 =

purity ring

no makeup

nyt crossword

dirt under nails

iphone 8 button

luka modric headband

ian level of normal style

lush product in metal tin

basketball ball ambient sound

twee adjacent outfit (peacoat + a hoodie)

bringing your boyfriend on the family vacation

12 05 2025

us again and again until its backwards

01 04 2024

IN

blogs

health

shame

posting

humility

honesty

manners

autotune

expired id

monogamy

owning less

snow globes

normal outfit

forgiving him

thin eyebrows

fake piercings

subversive drip

grocery shopping = hanging out

laying out outfit the night before

OUT

shyness

being tired

purchasing

rebranding

opium style

being crass

buying new

dating apps

dishes in sink

remembering

viral products

dressing down

private account

1:1 protein intake

being on your phone

being negative online

being down bad (publicly)

01 03 2025

borscht by grace

01 02 2024

i <3 the delusion of a new year

01 01 2025

zane waiting for me to be ready

new years day: central park + bagels + everything enjoyers

01 01 2025

new year: nothing needs to change

12 31 2024